Lonely

Never felt so alone.... I just want to be rescued but the Knight in shiny armor has already made his appearance.... and is gone.... I am alone. I feel alone. ....
Funny that when someone is having their last breakfast they usually don't know It's gonna be the last.... just a thought...
And now... crying myself to sleep? And decide when I wake up? Giving myself more time?  Or sparing the tears and doing it right away?

things I like....

I like sleeping... I guess being dead is different...I like being awaken in my sleep by a message... I wouldn't get awaken if dead...I wouldn't be awaken if alive either, not anymore.... so what's the difference.... Maybe one more night...one more cause I still have hope...? do I?....

I like lifting. My back hurts. If I make it to tomorrow I could lift...or maybe I couldn't....My back hurts....

I like eating...but I know I shouldn't.... If I'm dead that's definitely not an issue anymore. If I'm alive I'll be debating between doing it or not, feeling stressed out and maybe hating myself, or hating life....

I guess first I'll go to sleep...and let's see when I wake up...