It's a new dawn, it's a new day, it's a new life for me.

...and I'm feeling good....

As for this very moment I am...I kinda feel tempted to just close my eyes...out of sight, out of minda, and just enjoy this moment cause after so many days, NOW I'm feeling good! :D

and, yes, changing things a bit; I had my bag ready for the gym and I thought: :" Hey miss! not too fast! what did your PT say?" and I decided I'll do only cardio today, meaning, of course, BODYCOMBAT, I'm hoping for a Mix in Steglitz and it would be great if Nessun Dorma was in it!!!!

In other order of things: Yesterday at the vegan Summer fest, the team of Vegan Strength Germany was talking about the team, tem member etc...and they say ATM they don't have bodybuilders in the team and they would be happy to have some....so that got me really interested...then again I'm a newbie and still not 100% vegan but...it's a push to try this vegan thing and I'd be glad to be part of it. Then again I don't want to stay in Germany...but for the time I'm still here maybe...just thinking about it ;)

I've weighted myself today and i'm at the beginning again: I would have started my cut 4 weeks ago but...life came in the way...Sometimes life interferes with our plans...so I'm at the very same point as the moment I started.... same weight..... my lifts are minimally better though... So up for a new start! Starting today just like my PT told me, no radical diets, no extreme cardio...after all I'm not competing any time soon!!!!

Reality check and starting the cut

i've been pretty upset lately. Last tuesday a co-worker , just out of the blue and knowing that i'm training told me 2your tummy is sticking out" and 2are you sure you're not eating too much?" that was more than I could bear...It got me depressed all tuesday long, most of wednesday and I still get mad when I think about it...so it's time to put a solution...Now I don't care if I don't have muscle enough to go on a cut, i'm doing it anyway cause the worst thing i can hear is being called fat: call me ugly, stupid, bitch...whatever...but fat...that just hurts, hurts so much....I try to see the positive side, like, taking it as a wake-up call that I should really start cutting and losing fat....not because of caring of what that asshole says or thinks...but because i have come to realise that he's right...he's an ass, but he's right, he doesn't know how to treat people, he doesn'tz know politeness, he is not able to coexist with human beings...but he's right, I'm fat.... so I'm cutting....

Calculated macros for fat loss and I have to stick to it cause otherwise i will hate myself. I know I can do it, but i'm yet to prove it, not to him, to me! I keep on sabotaging me all the time, why? NO! not this time, this time I'm doing it right! Shame on me if I'm not! here's what I calculated...

I have to take extreme measures. It's ging to be the first time I follow it to the T...and I will! with LEANGAINS and IIFYM.