Justifying myself?...no, I won't

I've never been a fan of justifying my acts or myself...If I do something wrong I just learn fro it and if someone points it out, Itake that criticism and try to make it right for next time, in case I have done something wrong...and in case I haven't then I don't need to justify myself.... I hate that: excuses...not for me... I almost never use them, which is rare...normally people actually expect them, like saying : "you're late" and you expect an excuse, like "I was stuck in traffic" or whatever.... Actually not giving the excuse on the first place can come across really strange.... but it's my way to handle things.

What I want to say with this is that: yes, I'm putting on weight, my diet is supossed to make me stronger, I'm supossed to put on weight...and I kinda feel the need to justify it in front of everybody (especially in front of the other girls at the gym)...they will see I'm not as thin as I used to , but...you know what?! fuck that! why do I have to justify my weight gain (or loss if it was the case) in front of anybody?. I know why I'm doing it, it has a purpose, and whatever others may think shouldn't be any worry... Of course it would worry me if I lnow I'm doing something which sabotage my goals, but it's the opositte so...I rather don't listen....

Today at the gym...stupid example: After combat some girl I know told me, like smirking because of it being unpleasant, that I was wet...OF COURSE! I was sweating like crazy cause I was working ou! and I kinda "justified" myself saying I was just out from combat...I should have ignore her...I mean...WTF?!

Another girl at the gym saw a pic of me and said that I wasn't really lifting a lot of weight and I said I'm on the way of getting stronger, maybe I'm not strong yet, and thet the exercise she was refering to, I was doing with one arm , not two...still...why do I bother...? Maybe I'm just having a bad day, but , really, I'm tired of having to please everybody.... If they have something against me, fair enough, haters' gonna hate... but I don't need to justify myself for anything I do as long as I know it's right and it's not hurting anybody.