rest day post

A non gym-related post for a change ;)

Test-day at a new job and...even not being sure if i want the job or not I was feeling quite down about not doing so great.... do I ask myself for too much`am I so afraid of rejection that I fear already the possibility of being rejected?.... it's difficult! ...but dealing with that feeling is something that I don't manage well.... sometimes we would stick to something that we know we "have" and not venture into the possibility of new things out of fear of being rejected...cause it hurts so much! .... It terrifies me...but then again i'm the kind of person who wants to LIVE and not to lead a shadow/ shallow-life, I want to feel, the good, the bad, I'm passionate.... which puts me at risk! But I like being like this...i've been numb (by choice) for years...and that'*s living being dead...what for? Actually I always wanted to die, passively, I wouldn't try to commit suicide but more often than not I was wishing , yearning for death.... How it has changed! and all because of living an active life! I've changed so much! It's been now a year since I started in the gym and I couldn't be more motivated!!! Can't wait to hit the weights tomorrow...and...tho I was feeling down, now thinking about this and thanks to the awesome people in fitocracy , i feel so much better!