Feedback and some rantings....

It's been a while since I don't post but that doesn't mean I stopped working out or losz motivation, not at all! If anything, then it's the oppositte! :)... I keep on seeing progress and get good feedback from my coach.

Here's what he wrote the other day:

oh well the reason why we don't lift heavy is because lifting heavy weights and squatting will make us all bulky uzi, bullshit, no it doesn't, here's a a client of mine who is prime example of what wonders a good dose of heavy squatting and deadlifting can do for your body! she also just hit her first pullup today and there are big things in store for this girl! These are the results after one month of training, stay tuned and I'll post another picture couple of months down the line which is even going to make this look like nothing. Super proud of her! More booty, muscles and power to you!  — with Alex Mills.

I was really happy when I read this the day after! It helps me very much with motivation!

In other order of things I was talking with my BFF yesterday about how training and bodybuilding can have a great influence in your mind and not only in your body. I come from an eating disorder. Anorexia is a mental estate in which you basicall want to feel weak so tha people take care of you and love you.... Like when you are a child, it's like a way to remain in your childhood...you want to get attenttion and love and to your mind it seems that is the way to get it.... by being weak.... I used to feel that way....I f someone had told me five years ago that I would be so positive as I am now and wanting to get strong I wouldn't have believed it. 

We talked long about my former and my current minset and how the body affects the mind... Well, I've always had a tendency to depression but it's changing...and kinda for the complete oppositte! Oh my! Sometimes I'm so positive thet people make fun of me! LOL...happy I can be so amusing! :D :D :D... and ...you know...whatever makes me happy! It might sound superficial "being so happy" especially if you have like "brooding" people around seeming so deep...well...as far as I'm concerned...been there, done that...and turned the page! now I'm happy ... why? because I chose to be!